And so it is

Today was the big day, he left for vacation. "It will be good for our relationship." Aren't I the one that is supposed to say things like that? I guess not. Just a few weeks and things will go back to normal. Long nights on the phone wishing we were together and that things were different than they are. I don't know what is going to happen and that really scares me, to have someone in your life that you are so involved in is scary and i don't know if i will ever do it again. The relationships of his past have scared him and now I am paying for that... is it right? Is it right to hang onto me? I don't know. All I know is that i could be with him for the rest of my life, happy, supportive and successful. I guess I can't control the future of a relationship that is going oh so well.

This is me, this is my story. I'm giving you my heart so be kind with it. I wish i said I love you.